For you, a thousand times over. 7

it's early monday morning and i am in pain.
it's been a while but I keep thinking you already know.
they keep asking me about how we said our goodbyes
and it hurts to remember
i still love you and i miss you 
it's almost everyday i wonder & look back and think.. how did things ever end up like this

I never believed people when they said how much it hurts to say goodbye
until it was me lying on my bedroom floor with mascara running down my face, gasping for air, crying
so dont you dare say that you never killed someone,because that night you killed me.

please find me now before someone else does
it's 4 am, feeling like i lost a friend
the truth is, i feel beyond sad. i feel empty. numb.
and i just wish i could tell you everything in my mind right now
and maybe, i'm really hoping you still feel the same way. 


i hope you know its not easy for me
please open the door.