for all of you.

Its almost everyday I wonder & look back and think.. How did things ever end up like this..

I dont know how else to say this or to individually tell person to person, But my life so far has been the craziest journey and craziest trip

Little things just add up and work out and I never know if its who to thank. I ask for anyone to read this with just respect if you’re one of my best friends good friend person ive met once or that i dont know, not trying for any personal gain. I Just have alot to think about and say to alot of people… the things ive seen and learned so far in this life take me over is such a vivid strong way. I can never be more thankful for the things i have in life starting with the people i can name alot of you but theres a few who stand out to me that have been my teacher and my student and my partner in alot of learning cures of life. In the last 6 months alone i have learned so much.. as a kid i was disrespectful to people not a bad kid but just a rowty grom that liked laughs and never thought of the other persons feelings or being. If theres ever been a point were i crossed negatively with you i give you my sorrys & respects, not saying its the person i use to be but that person has learned and grew over time.. I have things to be greatful for so many i could take up and irritate you with a list down youre news feed.. 

Growing up in this place, Ive learned more morals and life rules then algebra and geometry. Being out of school sense i was 15 has been the best choice i ever made loosing someone special at the age of 16 was the strongest wake up anyone could give me & seeing so much of every emotion in life has taught me… I may not agree with everyones ideas & cultures beliefs etc but i give you my respects. I can wake up in the morning and feel the warmth on my skin and have a roof over my head and look in the mirror to be 100% happy with my looks & the person im growing into. things i never thought have happend in this last 6 months i never thought would happend in my life..

finding a guy
that has replaced that numb dead feeling.. we have our ups and downs but there is no guy that will ever make me so happy in life & accept me. also starting to care less about how i appear to people and trying to be something like everyone tries to be to stand out .. started not to give a fuck or even care what anyone has to say or thinks… 
one of my best friends told me
 “the problem now days is everyone has to try be something” when all you need is to be happy with you’re own life wether its given to it or you have to put you’re sweat and blood into it. I never set out to completely be something but more to be well rounded..

I’m no better then you reading this, any sort of idea of personal significance over someone else or our idea someone is better then someone else. Everyone alive and capable of reading this is flesh and bone an you’re life is no stronger then a small silver bullet or a tiny bacteria or a disease like cancer living inside you waiting for another moment  in this world to come alive. Life is so short but its also the longest thing anyone will ever feel or experience..

Being blessed to travel and see different religions and ways of life opens my eyes. Life is crazy and we know such a small
part of our existence & reasons and everything beyond that. This is long probably way to fucking long for Facebook. But i want to share with the ones i know and just want to tell you all my friends thank you for your existence & lessons and good times and everything. Sometimes life
just takes us under its control not life but more of man made life.  stressing about getting into school worrying about what others think of you being judged and so much more worrying about the walls you create and being numb from a broken heart or a bad time in you’re life.. or even worring about not being as good as someone else or as good looking ya ya ya whatever that reason is. take a step back take a realization I’ve learned that all that matters in life are the things you learn the people you have and the things you love to do… “life is simple do what you love, & do it often” …There are evil spirits & people and beings in this world from the corrupt politicians to you and youre evil thoughts that we all have sometimes.. this is an scattered multiple misspellings bad punctuation of my thoughts and feelings but thats the only way i want to say this is raw. 1000s of religions tons of blood shed and problems that people have created for ever in our history of existence & present day, I find no better way then to spread positiveness & love to those in my life.. All i wish to do is spend time doing what i love and get better at my things i love to do… travel and learning as much as i can and spending good times with those who matter most. im a human like you i get caught up in dumbshit & worry about stupid things and sin everyday and i probably will for
all my life… this is only a bit of whats on my mind right now … family
has been slim for me always so friends and people i interact with are the things i treasure and the close ones you know who you are… theres no rush in life to become or do something so enjoy you’re time

to you.. 
 you are the most perfect flawless gorgeous human being I’ve ever met its not fair to the rest of us i am so thankful for you!! 
and my perfect loving mother thankful for your last words and the world
you brought me to i never plan to let you down or become anyless then you wanted me to become ..and to all my friends and the people i have yet to meet in my life.. I am so stoked for the good times to come and the things we will do… novel and a half but just needed to say a bit, hope everyone is successfully moving towards there own unique happiness in this crazy life & world we live!!!!