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"Sometimes you meet someone, and it’s so clear that the two of you, on some level belong together. As lovers, or as friends, or as family, or as something entirely different. You just work, whether you understand one another or you’re in love or you’re partners in crime. You meet these people throughout your life, out of nowhere, under the strangest circumstances, and they help you feel alive. I don’t know if that makes me believe in coincidence, or fate, or sheer blind luck, but it definitely makes me believe in something."

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HE MADE ME SEE GOOD IN MYSELF, MOM. 
HE LOOKS AT ME LIKE I WAS THE SINGLE STAR IN THE NIGHT. 
HES BEAUTIFUL. HE SMELLS LIKE THE OCEAN. I REMEMBER ONE TIME WE WERE LYING DOWN ON THE FLOOR, AND HE ASKED FOR A KISS. 
I COULD FEEL BUTTERFLIES SINGING IN MY STOMACH MOM. HE MADE ME CRY, HE GOD DAMN KNOWS HOW TO MAKE ME LAUGH. HE MAKES ME WANT TO CRY BECAUSE HE IS SO DAMN GOOD FOR ME BUT HE IS BAD. HE FUCKED ME OVER MOM. HE MAKES ME FEEL LIKE ECSTASY. 

Baby,
Sometimes I think I shouldn’t let you come back. This has all gone on too long. It is so hard to love someone so inconstant, someone who is so often fading before my eyes. But I know I will always welcome your return. The way you crack open the sky to come home to me. It is all I can do to bathe in your brilliance. Beautiful, after all this time you still control my every move. I become such a monster when I miss you. Baby, it is always so dark when you’re gone. 

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it's sad to think that no matter how hard i try to forget about you, i'll always come running back to you. 

for you a thousand times over.

I like to think that nothing’s final, and that everyone gets to be together even when it looks like they don’t, that it all works out even when all the evidence seems to say something else, that you and I are always young in the ocean, and that I’ll see you sometime again, even if it’s not with any kind of eyes I know of or understand. I wouldn’t be surprised if that is the way things go after all - that all things end happy. 

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when i found you, i lost myself. 

the crowds in my heart they've been calling your name 

i heard you made your way back 
to the place where we first met 

i was looking for your face in the crowd but i kept my head down 

it's too late to go back 

cus we've been down that road before.